Today I walked to the edge of me
resisting the glitters of former shame
no longer beholden to a panacea
because I can't stay the same.
I am feeling my age and the ages I've been
not here and gone too soon
the air around me feels on fire
and I am left howling at the moon.
My irises take it all in somehow
the colors swirl in my lane
everything feels so very vivid
and I cannot stay the same.
The pieces of me are shattering
I try to put them back together again
maybe this is how it is supposed to be
letting Mother Nature win.
I am so many different people
they all reside inside of me
Who am I today, I wonder?
Which woman shall I be?
I used to be a child
a girl they thought they could tame
she fought back with the originality of her mind
because she couldn't stay the same.
The girl grew and forgot her mother tongue
she wished upon the stars at night
she dreamt of far-off places
but was tired of putting up a fight.
The girl is now a woman
now that woman is in me
I am splintering once again
emotions felt viscerally.
The mirror is cold to the touch
but I look into the abyss anyway.
The picture is hazy, not fully formed
but my eyes show me the way.
Because I have had a spiritual awakening
I have found my sense of self
my healing has been anything but linear
but my spirit has found her wealth.
Girl, woman, mother
I have walked to the edge of me.
I have run down oceans of sand,
jumped off the pier and into the sea.
The fractured pieces have come together
into a puzzle only I can see.
The universe is shifting her cosmos
into a canvas that's made for me.
Dreamer, nymph, teacher
I give to her; she gives in return.
The past recedes into my memory
and I am letting it all burn.
I am different now, I feel it
life is coursing through my veins
my soul has truly awakened
and I cannot stay the same.
One of the most interesting things about living for a long time is going through all the passages. This lovely poem sings praise to all of them and more. Thank you, Mackenzie.
Oh my goodness Mackenzie, this is so incredibly beautiful. Breathtaking actually! Thank you for sharing this reflective and powerful piece, much love to you xx